26 Dec .. not really hapi wid cui :(

i hate you when you were not beside of me !!
so when are you cuming bck to me !!
You are the one who make me proud !!
Should i tell you why you were awsome ??

• you noe my feeling when even i feel ...
• you noe how to make my SMILE back ..
• you noe how to cheer me up when i'm down ..
• you were to nice and awsome to me ..

this is the answer tat you want from me :) hope you understand .. and come back to me !! i do Hate you So much ... * Cross Finger *

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28 Dec ... are you the one that make my Heart and Love back ?

YES !! you are the one :)) you make me strong when i'm small :)) we play together when we are small :)) we do figth together when we are small :)) but .. i Do hate you when we are SMALL :)) cos you make me amile and strong back like a Sunflower :))

When * You Say I Love You * - I Will Say I love You More Than I Say - Happy .. erm .. erm .. not sure :) Guess your Self :)

25 Dec ... Christmas :)

Merry Christmas Peeps .....

Hate this year Christmas Love last year Christmas was awsome :)
Bye Santa, here come New Year !!
Jingle Bell Jingel Bell !! now is 12.00 am is going to 26 Dec ..

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Would you tell me how much you love me !!

Would you tell me how much you like me !!

Would you tell me how much you hate me !!

Would let me cry on your lap !!

Would you be my side when i need you !!

You were just everything to me !!

You were just a pillow to me !!

You were just a statue to me !!

but when the time come and say we are not belong together !!

can you give me a last Hug and Kiss !!

and let me be in your heart when we not together :)

i noe is hard for you to answer , but the way to be must be the way tat has been told :)

hope you understand wat i'm saying !!

i'm sry to let you down !!

give me a chance to see you for the last time :)

23 Dec .. I'm Happy now so let me cry now

Yesterday, i chat wid Susan at msn ..
is were so shock after i heard her story .. it were hurt acutally how could i meet those kind of peeps tat have no feel at all !!

Susan i feel so sry after i hear all your story ... it were BOOM !! how could you do tat ..
well i hope it won't happened to me :(
it quiet fun after talking Susan at msn .. it full of joyfull !!
man ... if i noe you early i could be your best and true frend !!
well seemes you were my true after all :)
Thx Susan, make my smile back again !!

okay .. now the time to die or the time to alive !!
tmr is my a peace day :)
PMR result is out ..

Dera Jesus,
i want to pass my PMR !! i want my dad and frend to proud of me !! it could nothing more than i want .. the oni Christmas present i want for this year is all pass in my PMR (2009)
nxt year is (2010) and it will be a brand new year to me and every one in earth .
i will be 16 year old on the 29 of june 2010 .. the oni thing i pray to you Jesus i want to pass my PMR and bless my dad with full of Jesus Love ..
Jesus, i know you love every Children in the world, even their bad and not that good !! you did't hate any one before !! Jesus, i pray to you every moment where am i .. i pray to you !! even i dun really go church i still have you Jesus .. Jesus you sre my leader lead me to the good way ... grant my sins that i have been thru all this time .. i will change from now on ... i will be a good girl to every one of my family and frend ...
Jesus, you are my Shaper !!
No matter wat happend to you dad ... i will keep up my studys and make your prod ...
Amen.

20,21,22 Dec .. Birthday Peeps

Happy Birthday to My dear

Ng Pei Wen , Wenny

Happy Birthday To My Dear Mummy and Daddy

Cheng Yu Keong

Teh Kai Boon

19 Dec ... TeeHee

First i just want to say .. i'm sorry cos my blog kinda death !!

Is a very big day after all this happened, dad kena accident :'(
Leg broke :( well maybe tat's his Luck !!
Girl, you are strong, dun make your self down !!

well, day's has gone so far !! nothing to hide it anymore, you have to tell your frend that wat you feel now ...

Let me cry on your lap ,
Let me sleep on your lap ,
Let me see the sky with my eyes on your lap ,
Let me tell you the true wat actually who i am ,
Let me tell you the true wat acutally you are to me .

but you were nothing to me after we have been thru !!
you were just a wall infornt of my face !!
you were nothing when i tell you how i feel now !!

nothing fair of , nothing to scat of , nothing to hide of .
you were acutally awsome !!
but when you keep things behind me !! i feel i'm left out ..
peeps, i tod you are the one that i thrust but acutally you are not at all !!
i'm sry to say, you are acutally Jealous of me !!
you want to make every one hate me !!
go ahead and to all this. i will be alrite !!
even every one hate me, just want to tell you than i'm going to okay !!

The way i am is my self nothing much about me !!
The way i move is totally different than other peeps move !!
The way i smile is totally not the same as you guys !!
The way i talk to you is not the same at all !!

go ahead hate me, go ahead tell every one that you hate me !! i will be allrite !!
the oni thing i could ever say i never HATE you before even you were Jealous and Bad to me.

Josephine ♥

just for the remind of my heart :)

17 Dec ... (~.^)

well, it remind me of my Long Hair !!
i cut my hair short :)
well will up load the icture when i got take some picture of it .


Will up load for Cindy :))

17 Dec ..... :))

Great ... PMR result is totally out ...
is in the 24th of December 2009 ....
am i going to die or alive ?

Jesus,
you are my hero, you are my leader ...
you were be side of me when i need you ...
help me on this, even not so good result ...
but i dun want an E back ...

God, make me an instrument of your peace.
Where there is hatred, let me sow love;
Where there is injury, pardon;
Where there is doubt, faith;
Where there is despair, hope;
Where there is darkness, light;
Where there is sadness, joy;

O, divine Master,
grant that I may not so much seekto
be consoled as to console,
to be understood as to understand,
to be loved as to love.

For it is in giving that we receive,
It is in pardoning that we are pardoned,
and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life.

Amen.

Dear Jesus,
this is my prayer for you,
i noe i been bad for this 15 year ...
i was not a good girl that Jesus think ...
i was not enough to make people proud of me ...
i was not good to meke people Happy ...
the only things i noe about myself is ..
like to make people angry and *piss* off ..
i noe i talk all the wrong English that Parents never teach me before ...
the only i noe is always tell Lie ...
Jesus, grant that i be a good girl for now on ...
the only things i want in my life is .. a great result at my PMR ...

Our Father in the heaven,
Holy be your name,
Your kingdom come your will be done,
on earth and in heaven,
give us today our daily bread
forgive those who sins againt us,
bring to the test
and deliever us from evil .

Jesus, Forgive my sins that i have done ..
in Jesus name we prayer

Amem.

16 Dec .... wat should i do

Hate me !!
Love me !!
Like me !!
Scold me !!
Slap me !!
Punch me !!
Kick me !!
or wat ??

what should i do ? if you do this stuff to me ?
tell me the reason ?

why why why why
why why why
why why
why
?
??
???
????

if you hate me no prob :) just want you too noe .. i never hate you before never jealous you before ...i just need to noe the true :)) i begging u .. pls tell me the true

X.

14 Dec .. BYKJ

Happy Birthday !!

Bryan Yong Ken Joo

Hope you have a awsome day and a great day :))

X.

2 Dec ... a day with no one

why is my life like this always ?
in the office all my own ..
sister in school having SPM

GO SISTER GO YOU CAN DO IT :)

well sister in school .. mom dad in work ...brother go out ...

me at home .... i want to go out >:'(

well my sister say wanna go out on the christmas eve
i dun think can .. guys you noe lah my dad ...
well on th 28 .. frends ask me whether can go out ..
i dun think so ..
is taking result ... result bad .. kena scold from dad lar .....

Jesus , help me in my PMR result .. dun wanna fail >:'( pls help :( just wanna get a better result .... wanna go to the better class .. pls pls pls .. Jesus :)

mom did't cook any thing for me .. well i think i have to do all by my self .. GOSH .. people .... my bro came back and buy some thing for me then he play wid the laptop and went out again wat ......tut .. why every one in this house dun care aout me ... wat's wrong wid all this people .... always alone .. Josephine ... you have to noe that your mom and dad need to work .. your sister need to sit for SPM .. your brother is also working .. just stay at home be a good girl :) now is one in the afternoon .. haven't grab any thing for lunch yet .. gonna cook my self ... learn .. to cook .. muahahahahaha ....

i'm going to eat my lunch now .. will update my blog when i'm free ...

X.